I’ve been away from my blog for the past few months, but I am really trying to make some special time for it. While I’ve been away I’ve been learning all I can about my 5 1/2 month old, navigating how to be a working mama, baking a few things, traveling a bit and maybe even winding up in the hospital. All to say it has been an amazing few months of growth and realizing trusting God is about the best thing I can do. 

Jae is 5 1/2 months old now and is the sweetest thing around. I always knew babies were sweet, I just didn’t know they were THIS sweet. Her little personality is shining through and she’s such a light! She is kind, patient and makes so many people happy with her smile. My prayer for her is Proverbs 3:3-4 

“Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablets of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man.”

I went back to work 8 weeks after having Jae. I miss her and my husband through the day and some days are harder than others but I’ve learned a few things while doing it. 

• Jesus always fills the cracks. Whether it is providing amazing sitters, flying our parents out, providing a three-day weekend or spring break (teacher life), He always fills the cracks for my family and for my mama-heart. 
• Do the best you can. We had a crazy busy week a few weeks ago where I had meetings every day and my husband had a busy deadline week on top of trying to pack to leave for a flight across country and making sure we had everything for the baby. This week I’m pretty sure we ate dinner out every night. I just couldn’t get it together. After feeling guilty I decided to look at it as a crazy busy week and we still got fed and had great conversation at dinner! 
• Since I have to be away from my family parts of the day I have been loving a little morning hang out time before I have to leave. Try waking up before your kids so you can be ready. You can hang out for a bit together and if that doesn’t work, snuggle your family in bed!

I’ve been trying to find a little hobby outside of the daily lately that I enjoy. I took a cake decorating class a few years ago, and I love all the beautiful cakes I see on social media that I decided I wanted to start practicing again. I still have some practicing to do, but I love making these types of flowers and want to learn to make more pretty ones! 

We’ve been on a few trips these last few months. My husband surprised me with a weekend trip to San Diego. It is one of our favorite cities so we loved exploring it again with our sweet baby. We ate at our favorite restaurants, walked the beach, visited the seals and swung at the ocean. It was the perfect get away to refresh our souls. 

Our next trip was Jae’s first flight across country and she did amazing. We had a great time seeing family and even got snowed in during storm Stella for a few days. One night on the trip I started to not feel well and thought I was getting the flu. I could not stop throwing up and felt one of the worst I’ve ever felt. At 5:30 am a carbon monoxide detector started going off and I ended up in an ambulance on my way to the hospital with carbon monoxide poisoning. Thankfully I had great ER care and was on oxygen for about 6 hours until my levels went down. I was sent home and still didn’t feel good for a few days and was thankful I had family there to watch the baby. If you have gas in your home please make this a reason to get a detector and make sure your batteries are working. I am praising Jesus for his protection as the poison did not reach my husband or daughter and that I was okay! Here’s a link to a detector…order one please! 

My husband and I have considered lots of things these past few months and have a lot to pray for. I’ve come across this verse that I have been clinging to

“When the time is right, I, the Lord will make it happen” Isaiah 60:22. 

I am so thankful that the Lord allows me to make plans but it is His purpose and His timing that will prevail. I often times feel faithless when I know so much has to happen in order for my end result, but it’s in those moments He is even more faithful. In my devotional, Flourish, I recently read about trust and to remind myself that God is faithful by repeating to myself daily “You are good. You are faithful” just by saying that in my head when my trust is low it reminds me how faithful He really is. I hope it can help put your heart back at ease, too.